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– The Curse of Being a Survivor –

I exist in a state
where home is not a place,
but the imprinting
of a memory upon a moment;
a moment where my Mother’s name
is spoken in sacrilege,
where my very being
is deemed tainted
by a feminine nature,
and where the plans of my future
are dismissed as a distant dream.

Those years have left me walking wounded,
and in the scope of the greater conflict,
we’re always the last of the casualties to be looked after.

What strength have I
against the passing of time?
How can I overcome
the fear of my own strength,
what success it may bring
in contrast to the failures
predicted of me by others.
I am so used to the fear now
that I refuse to even try.

This,
a broken life,
is the curse of being a survivor.

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