– Suicidal Post it Notes –
1:
Perseverance being a matter
of selective circumstance,
I run into traffic
and try to dance;
I am the centre of your attentions,
the performative masochist
revelling in the halogen glow
of car headlights that shine on me
like gloriously lurid stage lights.
2:
I carry within me
a peculiar kind
of moral controversy;
it’s all just a matter of choice.
Yet you never complain,
for complacency sake,
since it brings such disdain
from those who prefer
to keep up the illusion
of their own stability.
3:
These suicidal post it notes
are stuck on the sidelines
of my mortal lifetime.
I am slowly killing myself
as loudly as possible,
so that everyone who hears me
will come to know the pain
that I have chosen to endure.